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deffinatly maybe. |
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| when you thought you had built relationship of trust and you discover one day that this relationship itself was barely there and better yet the trust is nonexistant. it didnt just one day slip away and somehow could be regained. it was never there to begin with. it was all a fascade.
a fascade that could someday sooner than needed cause my whole world to come tumbling down on top of me. people i've grown to love are not promised tomorrow and all i can do is fear, not welcome, the future.
the only thing to comfort me is the strength i have found in you.
i have also discovered that men are horrible i should be trusted with nothing. it is only when a boy begins to call himself a man that he betrays my trust.
everything that i saw as true was fake. and everyone i told were wrong because they said one bad thing about him should be given an appology because i was blind.
love is blind. it took me a long time to call him dad and it going to take even longer for me to forgive him.
Oh God.... now what?
Take my life
take away all the shattered dreams
in me
and give me love that will last forever
Take my life
give the love that makes me free
cause I believe that your love can save even a wretch like me
This race is not just for the runners
some of us walk while others barely crawl
we make our way through spring and winter
leaning on the strength that strengthens all
And when the sunlight fades to morning
you'll still be burning in my eyes
oh yes
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| hellos.
meetings.
firsts.
vows.
lies
mistrust
excuses
sneaking
tears
hurt
yelling
screaming
questions
minus answers
confusion
disgust.
these words are all that i've got.
all this because of a bastard i used to call dad.
-morgan the golden isnt too golden right now. |
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| ahoy there,
sorry no updates in a long time.
good reasons.
constantly busy and.. nothing to say.
i leave carolina for tennessee today.
three to four days with a family i cannot stand.
sounds like an action packed couple of days for me.
oh god..
wil is wonderful.
although i miss him so much.
and im sick of missing him.
it'll be so nice to just be home.
i cant wait to be quite honest.
i miss brooklyn terribly.
i just want a good hangout day with her.
and i need her here with me to make it through the tennesse family.
im sick of being alone.
and i want to go home.
pictures later.
maybe tomorrow.
<3
blow me down,
morgan the golden |
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